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Dear Jenna

I’m going to grope you and smack your ass tonight. You’re going to like it. 😉

Love,
Mark

On girls

I’ve been thinking about girls a lot lately. It actively started last winter when I admitted to Mark that I’d be into trying sex with a girl. (He was neutral-cool on that idea.)

In any case, the thought has persisted. I want girl-energy. A few weeks ago, I read from Leah’s blog. A little before that, I sought girls to flirt with on Twitter. Last week, I got a tweet from a girl. From her avatar, she looked hot. She told me that she was still in bed. At 10 a.m. my time. And embarrassingly I was completely lost.

I have no idea how to be sexy with a girl. It’s a complete mystery to me. What’s worse, I can’t even tell if I’m attracted to a girl using any electronic methods. Sure, I can look at a photograph and tell if she’s pretty or not, or if she has a hot body, but I can’t tell if I’d like to touch her. Or if she’d like to touch me. It’s weird, but I need tangible reality to tell that.

Without real-life experience, girls intimidate me. It’s funny, since I am a girl. I have lots of girl friends. I’m not intimidated by them at all. I can always think of something to say. But when you throw the possibility of sex into the mix, I get lost. There are no roles, no rules. And that scares me a little.

But I wish it were different. I wish I could satisfy my curiosity electronically. It would make me happy to flirt with a girl. I wish I could look at a photo of a girl and notice something other than the comparison checklist between her body and mine. I know it could be possible, but for me there’s more to it than appearances. I need to hear her voice, I need to make her laugh. I need her to tell me something interesting. I need to feel her energy. Mostly I need to know if she likes me. Then I’ll be able to tell if it’s going to work.

It’s definitely complicated.

My name is Jenna and I like to flirt

Should I feel guilty for having flirty friends? I am married. And more relevant, I never have had flirty friends before. Well, not sexy-flirty friends. There’s no precedent.

Here are the facts:

1. I’ve always been pretty shy about flirting.
2. I’ve been together with Mark for a very long time. He doesn’t flirt.
3. I’m a mom, which in my experience doesn’t jive with flirting.
4. I like to flirt. I’d do it more in real life if it weren’t for items 2 and 3.
5. Flirting online is fun and relatively harmless. At least I think it is.

So, should I feel guilty? I’m not sure. What would my friends say? Most would probably say yes. What do you think?

The thing is, I just don’t usually feel capable of experiencing guilt. It’s a foreign emotion for me. What’s with that? Am I a sociopath? I think I feel pretty much all the other emotions. But not guilt. Weird.

By the way, I’d really like to find a girl to flirt with. Know anyone?

Flirt with me

I like you best. You know I do.

You’re my favorite.

Toy with me and let me see you having fun.

Come on, try it. It will be amazing.

Trust me.