Tag Archive for Vocabulary

Vow

Noun

a solemn promise or assertion; specifically : one by which a person is bound to an act, service, or condition

Curiosity

Noun

1 : desire to know:

 a : inquisitive interest in others’ concerns : nosiness
 b : interest leading to inquiry <intellectual curiosity>

Alternatives to need

I prefer these:

Like
Love
Hate
Want
Feel
Own

Can you think of any others?

Need

Noun

1 : necessary duty : obligation

2 a : a lack of something requisite, desirable, or useful

b : a physiological or psychological requirement for the well-being of an organism

3 : a condition requiring supply or relief

4 : lack of the means of subsistence : poverty

Compromise

1 a : settlement of differences by or by consent reached by mutual concessions

b : something between or blending qualities of two different things

: a concession to something derogatory or prejudicial <a compromise of principles>

Meaning

Noun

1 a : the thing one intends to convey especially by language : purport
b : the thing that is conveyed especially by language : import

2 : something meant or intended : aim

3 : significant quality ; especially : implication of a hidden or special significance

4 a : the logical connotation of a word or phrase
b : the logical denotation or extension of a word or phrase

Revelation

noun

1 a : an act of revealing or communicating divine truth
b : something that is revealed by God to humans

2 a : an act of revealing to view or making known
b : something that is revealed ; especially : an enlightening or astonishing disclosure
c : a pleasant often enlightening surprise

3 capitalized : an apocalyptic writing addressed to early Christians of Asia Minor and included as a book in the New Testament — called also Apocalypse

Let’s try some self-definition

earnest – adj. characterized by a serious and intent mental state.

honest – adj. free from fraud or deception.

authentic – adj. worthy of acceptance or belief as based on fact.

Am I earnest? I don’t like that description. It rubs me the wrong way. Earnest brings to my mind well-meaning do-gooders trying to convince the world that they have it right. It’s reminiscent of Edward Norton’s character in Moonrise Kingdom, or the missionaries in Book of Mormon. So righteous, and so completely missing the point. Earnestness must prove itself. It must convince others that its way is the best way. It never, ever doubts itself, never laughs at its mistakes, never admits that it’s in over its head.

Honesty is a little better. Honesty takes the good with the bad and doesn’t need to please anyone. But honesty is slippery. She might hurt you with the truth, so sometimes she stays quiet. Sometimes she only shows half of herself, keeping the juicy bits hidden. She is sly, she is double edged, and she will bite. You have to keep your eye on honesty.

Authenticity, now, knows how to stand alone. Authenticity simply is. It’s been judged already and it passed. Authenticity is genuine. It invites you in, regardless of who you are and shares a bit of its reality with you. It shows its cracks and ugliness alongside its beauty. When you experience it, you know it.

Me? I’m trying for authenticity. That’s why I’m here, up in the attic, sharing my thoughts with you strangers. I want to share the bad and the good. I want to make you laugh and cry and feel something new. I write with reference to you, not to prove something, but to express a new truth about myself. I want to laugh about it, I really fucking want to, but I have a bunch of muck to wade through first. I want to show Mark that I can be fun and smart and hot all at once. And I want him to feel that way, too.