One night long ago in a scummy hotel room

Whispers in a darkened hotel room. We’re at the beach. All of us, for a weekend at the end of summer. It’s mid August and college is looming large, a bear that’s going to maul us.

He and I in one bed, a single friend in the other. Can she hear us? Of course she can.

Whispers. Giggles. Kissing. Lots of kissing.

It’s exciting to have an audience, and it’s conflicting. We want to make noise but we cannot.

Sucking, licking, clothes off, everything but.

Does she know? Is she asleep? No way. We are so hot we’re on fire. So is she, we can feel her.

I want to ask him for something. I really want him to lick my pussy. Yes, I do. I want it with every fiber of my being. This after literally hours of unreturned blow jobs. I muster my courage and whisper to him. No, he says. No? No. No. He says he’s not mature enough. What does that mean?

Thirty-five-year-old me has a few theories. Thirty-five-year-old me knows it’s not all about me. But 18-year-old me was closing fast. Zipping up like a jacket. And I’ve been that way until recently, in spite of limitless pussy licking from Mark. He’s good. But until recently, I couldn’t really feel it.



  1. Beck says:

    I have never met a guy who didn’t eat my pussy before my asking. I’ve never met one that didn’t talk about how much they love it. I feel sad for the ladies who never or rarely get to experience it. Takes the fun of oral away if your partner won’t reciprocate. Thanks for sharing.

  2. Anna Sky says:

    I’ve always been a bit reserved and icked out by the idea of oral so it was never a problem for me. Now though, as I’m getting more confident with my body, I want it more, but I’ve “trained” S not to try… 🙁

  3. Thanks for sharing this very intimate memory. I cannot remember if I ever had to ask someone to lick me. I guess not, because I just don’t ask… I don’t know how 🙂

    Rebel xox

  4. Molly says:

    Some men are idiots…. I am glad you have found one that showed you a different more delicious way!


  5. KaziG says:

    I never had it before Sir… and I’m so glad I asked!!

    ~Kazi xxx

  6. John says:

    It is a lovely thing to do, for both sides of the coin. Wifey never has to ask: in fact, she sometimes has to say “no” 🙁

  7. Lord Raven says:

    I am at a loss for the guys that don’t like oral, maybe its because I have and oral fetish myself. I think nothing is more personal and intimate than looking up into your lovers eyes as you enjoy the taste of their sex

  8. I completely understand the young you still echoing to the current you. When I hit any type of stumbling block, I can trace it back to the young me who wasn’t as confident, still holding onto things that need to be let go.
    I simply cannot be with someone who doesn’t give oral, especially I love to give and receive it.

  9. Stella says:

    It’s funny how suck little things so long ago affect us. I have had things like that, things that took years to get past. Glad to hear you have gotten past your block too.